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Flying Days (New song QUIK video)

 

This is a quick video shot at the beach while we were enjoying some family fun. We came home and recorded a version of our brand new song, ‘Flying Days’ and put that as the featured soundtrack. (Filmed, recorded and edited on Samsung S7 phone)

We hope to share more in this, ‘New song QUIK video’ format.

Thank you for these flying days

Lyrics, music and video
Copyright 2017 Mathew DesRoches

If we were religious – Love is our Religion

 I Believe in LOVE.

As the wind ignites the chimes on our blue barn I ponder what it means to know creation, the driving force behind all things: Love, Universal consciousness, The Creator, Great Spirit, Atum….GOD….There I said it, the G word. I used to be so triggered by that word; it has taken me a long time to realize that words are only signposts, descriptions for the sake of communication.

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I am not religious and was not brought up that way but still I have been completely triggered by that word. I am not ‘one of those people’ I would think to myself. Until I personally had my own experiences with different beautiful religious communities, I used to be so judgmental to all religion, making the vast sweep that they are all the same. I would see myself as almost arrogantly ‘spiritual’ and as I have gone down many roads on this ‘spiritual quest’ you might call it, I have always been a seeker of TRUTH. The only way I know truth is what resonates deep in my heart and soul. There are no words for it, just a knowing.

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As Albert Einstein has so eloquently expressed, ‘The most beautiful and profound emotion we can experience is the sensation of the mystical. It is at the root of all true science. That deeply emotional conviction of the presence of a superior reasoning power, which is revealed in the incomprehensible universe, is my idea of God.’ Even Einstein as a scientist is acknowledging a presence of a superior reasoning power in an incomprehensible universe.

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It has nothing to do with religion. This is the place that I reside, in the mystical magical place of the unknowable and unspeakable only felt by my senses, beyond words.

 

 

Sherry Anne

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I believe in LOVE.

I believe in goodness as the foundational fabric of creation. I believe that in every instance and every moment love reigns within us offering the opportunity to transcend our struggle and see the perfect unity of being.

 

Does my belief in love mean that I am bathed in the awareness of beauty and my life unfolds as one blissful sensation? Ummm… No. I sure wish it was! Sometimes I feel ignorance would truly be bliss. But for some reason I still believe. I just can’t shake this deep conviction that everything at its deepest level is perfect, that I AM in all truth absolutely as I have always been: luminous, stainless and free.

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This conviction of Love has led me to many books, many teachers and ultimately many experiences. At first I was set on enlightenment: I just knew I could make it, become the watcher, ‘Ohmm’ myself into transparency and beyond, transcend suffering and become the shining path itself. The quest for purity was essential but materially misplaced. No book held the answers, no teacher could pass on the right stuff. Book after book, teacher after teacher. On and on it went, essentially it was a Cinderella journey trying to find my spiritual practice ‘glass slipper’. Funny looking back! Still it lingers in my thoughts; maybe that new author has something for me?… So many good quotes, so many insights, so much love: but always somehow a miss.

 

Now please don’t get me wrong, all of these books and teachers held various degrees of truth some a mere kernel others saturated in goodness and clarity. Each lesson garnered was essential to the emerging understanding of being, essential to my growth of awareness. The obstacle did not lie in the books or teachers but instead in my perception, my tangential angle of objective approach that needed reevaluation. There is a highly quoted Leonard Cohen lyric, “There’s a crack in everything, that’s where the light gets in”. One day Cohen’s words meant something more, a deeper understanding arose and I felt the light bulb turn on. I couldn’t put my finger on it but I knew I was onto something, something big. Books started to mean less, I became disinterested in teachers, and the only longing I felt was a deep calling to be still, watch the horizon of emergence and breathe. What was it? What was I groping for in the dark?

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Instead of feeding dogma to the brain and ritual to the hands I was seeking direct experience. I had to find out what the ‘cracks in between’ held for me. I needed to experience it. I learned of polarity and how there really is no place ‘hot’ begins and ‘cold’ leaves off, or left begins and right departs, up to down , right to wrong, all is different degrees of expression, not polar opposites. Our stance within the experience creates the angle of viewing life. Object creates subject. My perspective creates my world. Whoa. Wait a minute right?!

Quantum entanglement.

Schrodingers cat.

Conscious observer.

If a tree falls in the woods, does it make a sound?

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I was being led to experience deeper levels of awareness and understanding day by day, I started to feel that sense of harmonizing with truth more often, in fact almost everyday. I kept trying to grab hold of truth, trying to capture right action, righteousness. Every time I tried to write it, say it or contain it I realized I was mistaken, that there was still some perceptual misalignment. So on I went trying to stay open.

 

Eventually I began to see the light that Leonard Cohen sang about. It was not only a magical light and a perceptible glow but the dawning of awareness. Connection to the infinite emergence. It was knowing. In all my Self directed learning throughout the years as a spiritual aspirant I had successfully missed the most basic and fundamental pillar of knowing.

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I had missed the fact: Everything is perfect as it is.

I  now see what lays within every moment .

Liberation. Perfect Peace. Zero Point. Reign of Grace.

It seems to me that the human urge to judge and create rights and wrongs has engineereed not only judicial and common cultural practices but it has also seeped into the vast majority of spiritual practices. I had unwittingly questioned everything except the first deception. There is no need for righteousness and seeking if everything is perfect, if our foundational essence is pure uncompromising love!

Now hold on, I can hear you… This does not mean I condone violence, inflicting hurt or any other life dampening activities; in fact just the opposite. I call upon all who sense a disturbance in the ‘Force of Love’ to act upon that sense and flood that disturbance with your light of love. Use your lens of awareness to magnify and shine love bright.

Let the FORCE OF LOVE be all that stands between us.

 

 

 

Follow to Find – Living Dreams

 

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Visiting Friends on the Road

Leaving a house of new friends with a belly full of breakfast, bodies renewed with hospitality and hearts rejuvenated with fellowship we embrace each other in farewell and hang prayers of love on each other’s mantle. Feeling inspired and looking to the horizon we depart.

Slipping across the flat lands dancing with the tossed and twirling tumbleweeds our little sanctuary on wheels weaves its way to our next city of destiny. What happened ‘then’ we leave in the reverb of the nights decay and take with us only the lessons of celebration and surrender.

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On stage in Medicine Hat, Alberta

From immeasurable heights of shared joy and communal celebration to the suffering of self judgement this journey of musical expression is proving to be a process of physical communion and personal introspection with all roads leading to healing the mind and opening the heart. Each step, every kilometre, each word and every melody fulfilling a promise of discovery and remembrance.

 

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As we follow our dreams we inevitably remain in the embrace of divine providence.  Follow your bliss and you find your bliss. Self discovery happens in surrendering not to your fears but to your dreams. As we say yes to opportunity and have faith in the divine perfection doors open and love heals.

Eyes into the sun and feet on the run we ascend to the heights of Self awareness Onwards and upwards we the on wings of faith pulled unexplainably into the furnace of open acceptance.

Big love to you our feathered family!

 

_Mathew

 

 

Hand Drawn – Hand Printed

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One of nearest and dearest superfans, Our sweet neice. Easily the best t-shirt model ever!

I’m just loving the creative opportunities that come with pursuing this musical adventure! A couple months ago it was suggested that we get shirts made up for this string of shows, yes thats right our very own band t-shirts! Okay so another seemingly insignificant milestone for those who have printed many shirts for their touring ensemble but for me.. for us!… Its just plain old sweetness! Since I totally love design and composition and Sherry has a great eye for aesthetic and balance we dove into shirt design. We started bouncing ideas and some preliminary sketches led us to understand that sometimes while trying to draw feathers one inadvertently draws fuzzy bananas… awkward… But one must keep on keepin on, right? Right. So I ended up bringing pen drawings into the computer and the digital domain and used the best of old school technology, pen and paper, and new school technology, thank you photoshop!, to get to a functional starting place. From here we enlisted the genius skills of veteran designer and photoshop key command stealth operator Zoltan Szoges from Wildwood. Zoltan turned our hand drawn idea into a beautiful creation! Thank you thank you!

We worked with an amazing printer here in Calgary, Karolina Gajewska, who ‘hand printed’ our ‘hand drawn’ design onto made in the USA American Apparel t-shirts. We love the way these shirts came out! And since I love the finery of fine fabric I would like to joyfully acknowledge, ‘they feel fantastic on!’, gotta Love the 50/50 cotton/poly blend so cozy! (i know its no cashmere but its like hippy silk to me!!)

We’re working out how to offer digital sales soon, but for now we will be selling them from our merch table showside, back of house, face to face, el humano to el humano… so… come on down and celebrate life with us, say hi, and if you happen to need a shirt… well then have we got just what you’re looking for 😉

We love you,

-Mathew

 

 

Taking Flight – First Tour!

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Flip Flap Fly! Up UP and AWAY!! Family tour!!

When I met Sherry in the summer of 2009 I was registered at UVIC to start my bachelor degree to become a teacher in the fall. I played her a few of my songs along with the story of how I loved to write and play music and she simply asked, “then why are you going to school to be a teacher?”. She believed in me from the first moment she met me. Why? Seriously I’m still not quite sure?! Sometimes I think I accidentally put a spell on her to see only my positive potential!.. Wait ? Well my spell clearly doesn’t work all the time! Haha. But seriously, she has been my biggest and most loyal supporter since those first days of falling deeply in love. She is the love of my life, my best friend, my rock, my anchor, my mischievous partner in mischievous deeds!, my muse, my wife, the mother of our beautiful son and so much more on a daily basis. Thank you sugar for believing in me even when, especially when! I don’t even believe in myself! You are the reason I sing of LOVE you have facilitated opening within me a gateway to the knowledge of Self. Thank you from the depths of my surrendered heart, I love you to the moon and back.

I feel now that you know how this vessel called WhiteBird was conceived, nurtured and grown you can understand that since the conception of our shared dream, July 9st, 2009, we have been carefully growing this entity that is just now taking interprovincial flight! Over the years we have been known musically in many different manifestations, Stella SOL, Lord and Lady Ravenshire, She Wolf and Karma, Mama and Papa Stone,  and as part of The Gumboot Collective (aka Caught in Amber, Something Special) and part of the wild and fun IMPROV band The Paradigm Shifters. Some of these handles we performed under some were only the vehicle of mental constructs that never left the house. What Im getting at is that we have been moving steadily toward the place where we are standing right this moment, Of Course!! Well, where are we your may ask? We are hours away from flying to Calgary to start our first ever tour!! A milestone? YES!! A moment for celebration? YES! A success in its own right? YES!! Am I EXCITED? Come on now surely you can feel where I’m at… YES IM THRILLED!!! If this was a paper journal you were reading right now the letters would have swelled into giant strokes of emotional expression taking larger and LARGER strides as the sentences go on! ON ward and upward! This journey is the culmination of a lifetime of dreams for myself, and to think that I get to share it with my wife, Sherry Anne, my son, Phoenix, and two dear friends, Lauren and Zoltan is just an amazing blessing! Did I mention that on top of the awesomeness of going on tour it gets even better? What I mean is that WhiteBird has been blessed with the opportunity to open for the amazing and wonderfully sweet songbird Lauren Mann! And I get to play bass for her! Yep its a quadruple header of sonic delight! maybe even a octo-header if you count all the musical blessings 😉

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Phoenix packing the tour van with Lauren and Zoltan (with his tool belt on of course!)
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Home sweet sweet home, ‘The Nest’. Goodbye for now sweet home! xo

So today was the day. We left our home in paradise this afternoon and while tidying up, for our lovely friends who will be house  sitting and cat petting while we are gone, Thank you you beauties :), we realized again how blessed we are to live in the magical, loving, caring community of Pender Island that we call home! So as we leave our nest and find the courage to take to the skies I pray that we see what we are meant to see, hear what we are meant to hear, let our hands be guided by the loving Spirit of our origin and our hearts cherish this breath of life we share as children of a loving  source.

We have been rehearsing our tunes and I feel great about the message of love and the themes of unity, grace, hope and faith that are prevalent in this set of songs.

So we left our island home and are bound for wild rose country…

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Crossing the waters and embarking on a new adventure!

I want all of you dreamers and believers out there to hold fast to your beloved passions and know that every day THE moment is alive… Follow your bliss to find your Bliss! Carpe Diem you beauties!

 

In Joy,

Mathew

 

Busy In The Studio

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Re-recording a scratch track mid session, listen to the click! – Photo by Clark Becker

Well after demoing nearly 30 tunes we’ve picked 7 and are just over half way finished tracking. Its been an absolutely fantastic process! We’ve been blessed with help from the finest of friends and musicians. We’ve been working at  Wildwood here on Pender Island with Zoltan and Lauren Szoges and what beautiful, loving and talented musical angels they are! With their help and direction some of our longest held dreams are coming to bear fruit, so exciting!

We have had the utmost pleasure of working with some of the finest and most talented players on Pender, all of whom we are grateful to call friends. So far we’ve had Clark Becker join us playing drums, which we tracked simultaneously with bass. Clark brought his masterful command of rhythm, cadence, arrangement knowledge and just down right deep grooves to the team, thank you Clark! We’ve been tracking acoustic and electric guitars this week as well as bass and some vocals up to now. Next week we plan on tracking cello, violin, horns, keys, more vocals and other guitar textures.

I’ll post more when we get through the week!

Thanks everyone for your support through this process,

Big Love

 

-Mathew